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Insecurity

Would you consider it greedy
To ache for all that brightness
Missing that exquisite feeling
The one of belonging and rightness

It's strange to yearn for crowded rooms
For so many lilts and tones
But jarring is this silence now
Greyness, evenings spent alone

Spent are my limbs and lungs
A rest from the fight is blessed
Alas the lack of friends I made
Leaves my heart put to the test

And perhaps it's just a drama
Withdrawal from my high of glee
Now my soul is left unsatisfied
It makes no sense to you, but me

And no man is an island
I've heard it said once or twice
Before, not knowing any difference
Now here a drowning vice

But may I still cling on to hope
That the door is still half open
Some of you may remember me
Have enjoyed the words we've spoken

And mayhaps, tis the darkness
Whispers words against new friends
That perhaps what has been started
It has yet to meet its ends

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I'm bleeding on the dance floor
But the band keeps playing on
And the dancers keep on twirling
As their shoe soles turn crimson
My blood type's AB positive And I'm positively sure                         I wish the only blood that's spilling  Would be mine across this floor
My eyes drift close, I'm failing           The band's melody begins to waver
And the dancers dance more slowly    To this new melancholy flavour
My lady beckons me closer                My cheek rests on the sticky floor    She's finally come to collect me          And set me free from this life's chore
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